EMBRACING A QUARTER OF A CENTURY
I woke up this morning and thought to myself... This is it, I'm officially a quarter of a century old.
Hold up. HIT THE PAUSE BUTTON. I'm half way to 50?! Seriously y'all, where does the time go?
I don't know how y'all view birthdays, but to me - just like New Years - my birthday is a time to reflect on the past year. Where I started, and where I am now. And let me tell you... This last year has been one for the books.
It was my toughest year to-date. I was confronted by heartache and love, betrayal and faith. But in the midst of all of my chaos, I was humbled. My parents separated, I fought for a relationship that just wasn't working, I wasn't nearly as far along in my career as I hoped to be, and even lost a few friendships... feeling emotionally spent and alone, I thought to myself that I had finally hit rock bottom. But I wasn't alone. Friends, family and God were there with me all along, all I had to do was simply look up. And, with their support, I learned (ahem... still learning) how to climb my way back to the top.
I held my 24th year to really high expectations. And it delivered. Maybe not in the ways I was expecting... but I've come to find that is just how life works. It never plays out exactly how you want it to, but always how you need it to.
My 24th year is where I learned that everything I stumble through has a purpose... as if my routes have already been paved. It became very clear to me that if I was ever going to find true happiness, I had to surrender my expectations, embrace change and let God's grace be enough.
So here's to 25; may I continue to be humbled and learn how to bloom with grace wherever my paths take me.
Proverbs 3:5-6: "Trust in the Lord with all of your heart; do not lean on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take."
I encourage you to reflect on your life over the past year. Where were you January 6, 2016? And where are you now? Are you happy? Are you where you want to be? Take a deep breathe. Close your eyes. Look into your heart. Do you feel that? The beating of your heart? That tells you that you're alive. And you are doing just fine. And you are going to be more than fine. There is a beautiful path ahead of you. So let go of your expectations and just start living.